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Am i way too silence? 😣

I was one of kind yang kalau dengar cerita orang pasal something yang kurang baik, i didn't react berlebih2. sebab i know that i have to investigate and verified the story first. it is unfair to judge the book by its cover, isn't it?

I am way more to observe what's happening around me. sometimes I've and I'd tried to talk a lot with people around me; family, friends, colleagues and so on. but i failed to do so. sometimes i succeed but then I thought, it is not me if I'm trying to make something different from what I used to be. It is fake! 😌

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To be continued~~

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