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Bismillahirrahmanirahiim Ummi Playhouse 7/4/15 7.25 pm Tadi berlangsung sedikit perkongsian hati dengan Kak Syikin and she said something like, 'trust me, there'll be never ada staff yg suka dgn majikan mereka walaupun majikan tu baik macamana pun.' Dalam hati cuma mampu cakap, 'And trust me akak, I love you more than what you'd thought.' T. T Kadang kala apa yang kita pernah expect tu tak menjadi walau 1% pun. Sebelum datang ke sini, di Ummi Playhouse ini, ana sendiri merasa deg-degan bak kata orang Indonesia. Merasa takut, seram dan entah apa lagi frasa yang menggambarkan perasaan tidak tentu arah waktu itu. Paling risau jika keluar mulut raksasa, masuk mulut alligator. ^^ Dan Allah Maha Mendengar, segala ketakutan, kebimbangan serta kegelisahan digantikan dengan sesuatu yang lebih bernilai. Priceless. Allah menggantikan kegelisahan ana dengan kasih sayang seorang kakak terhadap adiknya. Allah menggantikan kebimbangan ana dengan pelukan demi pelu...

Bismillahirrahmanirahiim. Sebenarnya hendak berkongsi keterujaan dalam menghargai masa selepas keluar result tapi hmm, lamanya. ** It was about preciousness of time. Haha. Cliche. But yes, for real I really mean that. Dua minggu periksa berlangsung berlalu dengan langsung tak buat apa2 for the first paper. Nthen second paper, cuma study for 1 and half hour. Guess how I sit for the exam with those preparation. -.- Second paper ni memang worse sebab whole week can't focus well on something for reason I feel the stomach macam sebu semacam. Rasa macam nak muntah ja pun ada. O Allah.  So, minggu ni agak strict dalam menjaga pemakanan. Cheiit. Skema. :D Back on Sunday, where I sit for an exam on 2pm. Can't sleep whole night sebab sebu. Nthen naik bilik around 6am in the morning with some hope I can take a nap . Unfortunately, I can't. Menyegarkan diri jam7, basuh baju + sidai + alihkan tanaman2 jam8-10. Masa yg ada untuk study cuma 2jam disebabkan kena gerak ke de...

Bismillahirrahmanirahiim. 2014, April 05. 12.33 am Ummi Playhouse Impian. Kadang kala sukar untuk merencana impian kerana ia unpredictable. Sukar merencana atau sukar melaksana? Hmm. ^^ Dulu bidadari saya pernah berkongsi, dia ingin menjadi seorang pendidik. Pendidik agama. Ingin menuntut, menambah ilmu di rantau orang tetapi dihalang dek ema(atok) dan iyya(nenek) atas alasan bimbang tidak dapat berjumpa sebelum mereka menghembuskan nafas terakhir. Lalu setelah beberapa pertimbangan dilakukan, akhirnya, impian bidadari saya terkubur disitu. Dia tidak menyesali takdir yg itu. Walau sedikit pun? Wallahua'lam. Kerana dia dengan bangga pernah berkata, 'kalau mama pergi juga masa tu, mama nda akan dapat Enn dgn abang. Mama lebih daripada bersyukur ada kamu.' Touching sat. T_T Pernah bertanya, 'kenapa ingin menjadi pendidik agama?' Lalu mama kata, 'kerana keadaan orang2 sekeliling yg kurang tahu bab2 seperti inilah mama mau belajar. Mama mau ajar doran...

It will hurt you more when you have to deal with the situation for not hurting your one and only person. . . We still can have a wonderful life if we were being isolated from the world, Can't promise to make all things perfect for you, For sure, I rather choose to take the hurt than letting you crying on my shoulder, Ur life stories became my melodious song, Sometimes its hurt, And sometimes its bring joy, Whoever you are, Whatever it takes, You'd shine my way, mama! Love you for the sake of Allah.

What to say? Learned from those wallboard? Hmm, maybe. Precious short lifetime shall not to be wasted by waiting for a dreamed castle so that you want and can study happily. Such a story of mine. Before, we are (our small family as well) kept moving into new places as our dad were changed and transferred (or traveled should I say) into new workplace for again and again just because of our dad work on the ship (teringat cerita about seorg kakak ni taught her daughters bgtau peeps yg ayah diorg tukang paip padahal sebenarnya seorang engineer, disebabkan tidak mahu riak atau bangga.. ergh tetiba pula ke sana) Shortly, our mom tend to taught us (me and my brother) by wrote something on the wall of our rent house. if she wrote A, then we learned something about A things that day. Well, for me, my mum was the great A thing in life. Love you! :) We happily enjoying all of those moment (can it be called homeschooling?) On those wall. Simple and worth it. Knowledge. Whatever we being ...